I feel I can't or will never find my apparent better half...I mean..where in the world is he?..Where?..I would never want to rush something like this or settle for second best. I've always wanted to rely on myself and not be a girly girl who gets doors opened for her, or who just gets the free stuff, like I would actually want to pay on a date, ofcourse my guy wouldn't be a cheap skate and always let me pay. I don't want to have to play mind games, Love is true..love is mature..look at me talking about love..me...yes me, I've just been thinking about it alot lately and I mean, I know "we're not perfect"..*note the quotation marks* We are called to be holy just as our heavenly Father is holy..somewhere Matthew 5 vs 40-something...hey I searched it's 48..the last verse of the chapter. But I mean..I'd love to be a person someone would love to love..get it?..People would say the kind of love that hurts'. I thought I found it..I thought I was being the best person I could..turns out God..loved me, loves me, will love me...even at my worst..and how awesome is it to know that?..
That's why I say to God, please keep my dearest wherever in the world he is. I've promised to save myself, I don't want to be anyone's sloppy seconds or thirds, but have that pure, beautiful love that reflects what the Lord truly had in mind. I'm a dreamer but I will not compromise, I will not hurry God's time is the best...easy to say :) but I have found it to be true.
I pray Lord for patience..lots of it, many a fine brother do I see, but you see past that and see our hearts. I'm just waiting for my best friend to make an appearance...and in the mean time trying not to get him confused with someone else..*please may he be hoTT.. ",* thanks.. -K
